Once again, I find myself short of ingredients about which to write poetry, so I’m skipping K. I hear kiwi fruit is an interesting fantasy note.
It seems that now has been the time to take advantage of the stay-at-home situation to wear bold, NSFW perfumes with great pleasure. I suppose I would if I could, but I haven’t had as much luck as others in this department—the few new (to me) samples that I’ve tried recently have been far too grating for me in one way or another. Cartier La Panthère, too cloying; Maison de Parfum Berry Kastellorizo, too pasty; and Berry (again) Conquérante, too harsh. This isn’t meant as a criticism of any of these perfumes, but rather an observation that I don’t seem to be able to maintain the same level of adventurous curiosity when I’m stuck with myself in a room all day. A good ol’ predictable, harmonious chorus of olfactory notes on faithful standby will do just fine.
I might be one of those types that don’t think they get anxious or depressed, but then end up having to circle back to re-examine that when things manifest in convoluted ways. In this case, I’d been having bad dreams since we started the soft lockdown. So, even though I was sleeping longer due to not having to commute, the quality of my sleep seemed worse. Not completely unaware, I figured it was situational anxiety and learned or reinforced a few things about it, courtesy of the great wealth of coping resources out there:
- While fear is adaptive—it teaches you not to repeat a behavior that puts you in danger—anxiety is not, and doesn’t really serve a useful purpose
- Panic is socially contagious
- It helps to keep things in external focus with conscious effort, so as not to internalize them
For me, part of it also boiled down to addressing procrastination, both work related and personal. This included reaching out to some friends I hadn’t been in touch with for a while and seeing how they were doing—thankfully, they are well.
Next up, maybe some chores…
A theme of memes and jokes going around is how we’ll deteriorate into much simpler creatures if the isolation goes on and we lose our social skills. I think that right now, keeping things simple already isn’t a bad idea. As much as possible. It helps to distill things down to what’s important today. Tomorrow is another day.